wow. lyrics are the best sometimes;

If you wait for me then Ill come for you
Although Ive traveled far
I always hold a place for you in my heart
If you think of me, if you miss me once in awhile
Then Ill return to you
Ill return and fill that space in your heart

Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
Ill find my way back to you
If youll be waiting
If you dream of me like I dream of you
In a place thats warm and dark
In a place where I can feel the beating of your heart

Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
Ill find my way back to you
If youll be waiting
Ive longed for you and I have desired
To see your face your smile
To be with you wherever you are

Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
Ill find my way back to you
If youll be waiting
Ive longed for you and I have desired
To see your face, your smile
To be with you wherever you are

Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
Ill find my way back to you
Please say youll be waiting

Together again
It would feel so good to be
In your arms
Where all my journeys end
If you can make a promise if its one that you can keep, I vow to come for you
If you wait for me and say youll hold
A place for me in your heart.

If you have time you should watch this;

This is the slide show that Tylers sisters made for his memorial,
he was an amazing guy, and this is the closest any of you will get to meeting him I guess so heres who he was:)

Our Time is Short;

I suppose you could say that things have been semi all right lately.
My life has become more normal again, I just work a lot.
I go through waves of sadness, and I guess that will forever be normal, but its just been hard.
I just miss him and get so angry sometimes thinking of the fact hes really truly gone.
Thanks to all of you who have been there for me,
it really takes a tragedy like this to remind you who your true friends are.
People who I never thought would be there for me have been, and it means the world.
Doing things that remind me of Tyler actually make me feel better, because sometimes I get to the point of panicking when I start to think about things.
I listen to our song everyday more than once for sure,
look at pictures and tell stories to my friends who never got to meet him,
and still do the things we used to do together.
Its nice.
I know I will never get over this, I will always hurt,
but what I am trying my best to do is take what I can from a shitty situation.

In the month I had with Tyler, I learned so much about myself.
I was shown how it feels to be treated like I truly deserve,
and I will never again settle with someone just to try and escape being lonely.
I also realized how important it truly is to treat everyday and everyone like it could be their last.
Never leave a situation angry, always tell those you care about that you love them.
As harsh as it is, you never know when the last time you get to talk to someone could be.
Tyler had such a kind heart, and seemed to be so genuinely nice to everyone,
being with him really taught me how important it is to be nice to everyone I encounter.
His kind hard was proven at his memorial when over 300 people came.
That just proves that he was loving and kind, because so many people truly loved him.

These things do not even begin to describe what I have learned in this past month,
but It kind of sums up the important stuff.

Our time is short, so please, just try to make the best out of your life.
Make a difference.

fuck:( ;

I dont know how to do this.
I cant pretend Im happy much longer.
God, I just want him back.
Why does life have to be un-fair like this.

peaceful;

This has by far and probably will be forever the most extreme experience of my life.
It has been so hard smiling and going on with life,
but all of a sudden I have just been filled with peace and comfort. Its weird.
I think just knowing that I will forever have someone watching over me is comforting.
Tyler was the most amazing person I have ever come in contact with.
He taught me so much about myself in such a small amount of time.
I will have the memories with me forever.
For now I have just realised that I need to life my life and smile and laugh and enjoy myself,
because that's what he would have wanted.
He is up there watching over us,
so I know it must make him sad when we are so upset.



Tyler;
I love you so much.
Although our time was not near long enough, it was the best ever.
You taught me more about myself and life than I had ever learned up to this point all together.
I have a new family, and some connections with some of your friends,
who are all amazing people.
You are loved and missed by many,
and I am going to keep smiling for you.
I promise.

wordless;

words can not describe how sureal my world is right now.
Its like im not in my body and im watching my life happen from a tv screen.
I have never been so.....emotionless yet full of emotion at the same time.
Im just staying at his dads house with his family. Its helpful.
I loved him, but I know he knew it.
For now, I am going to live out all our plans we had and I know he will be with me while I do it.
Let me know if you want to help. Ill need company.
I get his camera and I will be taking millions of pictures for him.

Thanks to all who have been so supportive.
Please dont be worrid if you cant contact me,
my cell has no service here and I will not be anywhere else for awhile

its just a nightmare;

It has to be. I think its over. I don't understand what is going on but the way people are talking its like his plug will be pulled sometime today

Oh Tyler. I don't even know what to say. Things happen so fast and life is so unfair. I am so angry and so confused. I just want to wake up from all of this. He can't be gone. This can't be happening. God has to save him. This hurts so bad.